I am in awe of what God is doing. And I’m not at all sure I even know what it is. I only see hints. But the hints have been loud. Big. He’s making good and sure I don’t miss them.
Ten days, maybe more. But ten days ago is when I started to take note. God is moving – in my family and in my ministry both.
I’ll start at home. This is not the same place as a month ago. That first week after the new year was still dark. Fear still lurked. At night, especially. But something happened, and I’m not sure what except now a few weeks later it’s light. Really quite light.
There’s music. I well up with tears as I write. My boys are falling in love with music, and I think somehow this is making me fall in love with my boys. You wouldn’t believe how much time they’ve been spending at piano and guitar. Unprompted. And alone – save for YouTube, their teacher. We ask about lessons, but so far they’d rather do it like this. And if this feels safe I’m all for it. It’s all a miracle anyway.
There’s snowboard and soccer, too. Boys embracing winter with activities – new and old. And it’s activity we’ve longed for. Especially for one boy in particular whose default had been couch and screen – and this seemed to foster that darkness. But now. Two days straight on the slopes with Dad. Yesterday no school and today a weekend. And I’m in the habit of seeing those days off on the calendar and cringing at the thought – but who knows? This might call for a new habit.
Moods are lighter, too – and conversation. We can joke and laugh and not offend. It almost feels normal.
And that’s just at home.
There’s been another whole miracle unfolding for me. Personally. At church and in ministry. Too much to explain right now, except to say this. Ten straight days God has been affirming and confirming and making Himself known. To me. Reminding. Renewing. In so many ways I can’t miss it. A vision and calling, and I am blown away by all this blessing.
Tonight I’m home ALONE. Just me and Maple and she sleeps at my feet. Another blessing. So I take advantage of this rare solitude by taking note and writing it down. Yes, God, I see them. Those hints and miracles and breath-taking blessings. You’ve got my attention. Ten days and counting.